5 Months,

The time really does just fly by. I cannot believe that I brought home my little angel 5 months ago today. Its crazy all the things my little Laiyla does now. She is scooching across the floor to reach her toys, we just had our first big girl meal today (oat meal and apple sauce) she is finding her little voice and talks non stop. I love her to pieces. I am so thankful that Heavenly Father blessed me with such a perfect baby :)

Laiylas first time eating oatmeal! (Please ignore my horrific baby talk voice)

She seems to love her Apple Sauce Oatmeal looks like I better get on top of this homeade baby food making I have a feeling we will be going through a lot. 

I am blessed.

Today has been hard and with faith and endurance it ended beautifully. I just know that if we do the things we are supposed to and stay and strong and faithful that we WILL be blessed. I know Heavenly Father places specific people in our lives for special reasons and that our trials can become blessings if we allow them to be. I didn't ask for this trail and I still don't fully understand why but I do know that with a firm foundation I can accomplish anything the Lord sets in front of me. I know that I was given Laiyla for an abundance of beautiful reasons and I want nothing less than everything for her. Right now my prayer is that Caleb's heart may be softened and that we can do this with open minds and kind hearts so she knows her mommy and daddy love her. I hope that with time these feelings of anger and sadness can be removed and I will feel peace in my heart again.

Life isnt aways what we expect it to be... Its SO much more.

I intend for this blog to be more of a journal and a way for me to remember and look back on all of the things that happen as my Laiyla continues to grow. I will post about my personal life, beliefs, accomplishment and trials. I will post endless amounts of pictures and blabberings about my chunk of love. If you do not like these please do not read or comment negatively. A lot has changed in my life in that last year some I will feel ok with sharing possibly over sharing somethings I wont speak of at all. I hope that these things I post about can warm your heart the main purpose is for those i love and are at home to feel they are still in a small way here with Laiyla and I. We love you :)