I am blessed.

Today has been hard and with faith and endurance it ended beautifully. I just know that if we do the things we are supposed to and stay and strong and faithful that we WILL be blessed. I know Heavenly Father places specific people in our lives for special reasons and that our trials can become blessings if we allow them to be. I didn't ask for this trail and I still don't fully understand why but I do know that with a firm foundation I can accomplish anything the Lord sets in front of me. I know that I was given Laiyla for an abundance of beautiful reasons and I want nothing less than everything for her. Right now my prayer is that Caleb's heart may be softened and that we can do this with open minds and kind hearts so she knows her mommy and daddy love her. I hope that with time these feelings of anger and sadness can be removed and I will feel peace in my heart again.